Do you ever just feel like you need a miracle? That's how I'm feeling these days. I've been fortunate to be able to be a SAHM for just about the past year. I wish I could work, but I have no one to care for my daughter, and no money to put her into a daycare. My other half works hard to support us, but these days his job just isn't cutting it. We're going to be evicted, very soon.  Christmas is in 8 weeks, we're not sure what's going to happen. It feels like the odds are against us. My family is going to be separated. The thought tears my heart into pieces. I'm 6 months pregnant with our second daughter. The pain this will conflict on us is stressing me out to no end. I don't want to separate my family. Our 2 Year Old Is Going To Be So Confused And upset. I'm more worried about her and how this will effect her, more than myself. She loves and adores her daddy, and so do I. Not being able to have him come home to us kills me. I don't know what's going to happen. We're strong though, hopefully strong enough to keep ourselves sane in this time of trial and error. Being pregnant my emotions are on high, I don't want to cry anymore. I have the option of going to my mother's house, but do I want to do that. I love my family,  but I can not deal with the stress and anxiety of living there. That's why I left to begin with. I don't want to bash them. My brothers, my sister, my niece and my mom. I love them all, but to live with them, I'm afraid of what it'll do to me mentally. I don't want to have to worry about my stuff being taken. If I move back there, I'll be in the basement where everyone does wash. I don't want to be disturbed or bothered.
It's not even like I'll have my own space. Sigh. I just wish a miracle would happen. I don't feel like I'm a horrible enough person to even be dealing with what I'm dealing with.