Ashley knows it all.

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So as I lay here in my bed with my boyfriend who is snoring away and our little girl in between the two of us, I can't help but to wonder what I was meant to do in life. I feel like I have so much great potential to be successful. I just really want to make a difference in people's lives. I want to go to college (I'm constantly kicking myself in the ass for not going right out of high school) I want to get my BSN in nursing. This weather needs to warm up a bit so I can get out of the house. I'm hoping to be enrolled in to school by September, to start my journey to being more successful. I really want to better myself and be the best role model for my daughter (and future children.) I want to write about something that is no stranger to me. Addiction, I am fortunate enough to not have addiction tendencies. However, a few people close to me fight addiction. Well people that were once close to me. I'm not going to mention any names

So let's talk about drugs, most of us try them at least once. I've done my fair share, but I never did any of the hard core stuff. Drugs is a very controversial topic. Every one has something to say, I feel as if though people who don't have someone close to them who is an addict, don't really know what they're talking about when they say that. My siblings, my father, my best friends are all addicts. I don't even know who they are anymore. The people I'd always thought I'd always be able to count on can't even depend on themselves.

Do you ever just feel like you need a miracle? That's how I'm feeling these days. I've been fortunate to be able to be a SAHM for just about the past year. I wish I could work, but I have no one to care for my daughter, and no money to put her into a daycare. My other half works hard to support us, but these days his job just isn't cutting it. We're going to be evicted, very soon.  Christmas is in 8 weeks, we're not sure what's going to happen. It feels like the odds are against us. My family is going to be separated. The thought tears my heart into pieces. I'm 6 months pregnant with our second daughter. The pain this will conflict on us is stressing me out to no end. I don't want to separate my family. Our 2 Year Old Is Going To Be So Confused And upset. I'm more worried about her and how this will effect her, more than myself. She loves and adores her daddy, and so do I. Not being able to have him come home to us kills me. I don't know what...

So let's start at the beginning, I am the nicest bitch. I come off as a bitch to most as a defense mechanism. I hide behind my sarcasm and attitude. I am one of the nicest, caring people some people will ever know. Secretly, that is. I guess since I've always been nice that i'm less likely to get hurt by putting up a front. I don't have many friends, for these reasons. The less people you have in your life, the less your able to be hurt. I guess that's what I think subconsciously. Truth is, the people have closest to you, hurt you the most. I can't say that I've had the worst up bringing ever. I have good morals, I always mean good. Well that's a lie, not all the time. Right now, as i'm typing this, I'm wondering .. Will anyone actually read this? I guess we'll see. SOO, Have you heard? Ashley Gebauer is PREGNANT! Crazy, Thought this would never happen. I believe this is fate. Call me crazy, but if I explained the series of events prio...

Well since I've started my blog my life has changed right before my eyes, I am the mother of a beautiful little girl. Aubrey, she will be 2 in April. I'll be 24 in a little less than a week and I'm feeling bitter sweet about it. I was just 18 last week. To be 18 again,  I wish. I'm a normal person, or so I'd like to think. Life is beautiful. In the last year I've lost two family members very dear to be but gained two back due to them giving up drugs. I'm going to start off with the topic of motherhood. What a roller coaster! Being a mom takes patience and understanding. Lots of love, hugs and kisses. The love I have for my daughter is undeniably the most wonderful feeling I have ever felt. When you have children it is a 24/7 job. As I'm writing this I have my princess playing in the bath tub while I'm sitting in the bathroom with her of course while she plays. I miss having to bathe her in an infant bathtub. Listening to her talking in her cute lit...