Ashley knows it all.

So let's start at the beginning, I am the nicest bitch. I come off as a bitch to most as a defense mechanism. I hide behind my sarcasm and attitude. I am one of the nicest, caring people some people will ever know. Secretly, that is. I guess since I've always been nice that i'm less likely to get hurt by putting up a front. I don't have many friends, for these reasons. The less people you have in your life, the less your able to be hurt. I guess that's what I think subconsciously. Truth is, the people have closest to you, hurt you the most. I can't say that I've had the worst up bringing ever. I have good morals, I always mean good. Well that's a lie, not all the time. Right now, as i'm typing this, I'm wondering .. Will anyone actually read this? I guess we'll see. SOO, Have you heard? Ashley Gebauer is PREGNANT! Crazy, Thought this would never happen. I believe this is fate. Call me crazy, but if I explained the series of events prio...

Well since I've started my blog my life has changed right before my eyes, I am the mother of a beautiful little girl. Aubrey, she will be 2 in April. I'll be 24 in a little less than a week and I'm feeling bitter sweet about it. I was just 18 last week. To be 18 again,  I wish. I'm a normal person, or so I'd like to think. Life is beautiful. In the last year I've lost two family members very dear to be but gained two back due to them giving up drugs. I'm going to start off with the topic of motherhood. What a roller coaster! Being a mom takes patience and understanding. Lots of love, hugs and kisses. The love I have for my daughter is undeniably the most wonderful feeling I have ever felt. When you have children it is a 24/7 job. As I'm writing this I have my princess playing in the bath tub while I'm sitting in the bathroom with her of course while she plays. I miss having to bathe her in an infant bathtub. Listening to her talking in her cute lit...